Hatred Not Yet Loved

2008-05-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

School's been AWESOME, but somethings like ******,
hasn't been what i have been feeling at all ):
idk.
Sucks much.
idkkkk. i just dont feel like going back,
maybe its th people there.
ughhh but i have too.
oh wells.
thanks alot val&tiffo& perry. (:

Tiffo i miss you vehh.vehh.vehh muchh ):

2008-05-12T05:46:00.000-07:00

To Tiffany:
You didnt let me down kay. i just wish that i had tried my ultimate best to help you.
Remember we had that talk two weeks back.
Well, at least you were true to yourself right.
I hope he calls soon.
You know now that Saturdays are out,
I'm gonna miss you hell lots.
Hopefully we'll attend mass together k.
i promise to continue to update you k.
You also must.
DANG i miss you so much alrdy.
Haven't seen you in th longest time know.
)':
But thanky0u for helping me grow in my faith tiffany.
You've definitely motivated me to come for cath classes.
And now I've became a confirmed catholic, thanks to you.
For making me feel confident
even till now, i still look upon you as a pillar of support know.
Thankyou very much.
This wont be th end k.
I love you Les.
& i appreciate everything you have done for me.

2008-05-07T07:24:00.000-07:00

Idk what to say/do anymore. You do it and I do it, there’s a reason for things to happen.

You think I lie then so be it, since your trust was long gone. Nothing gonna change period.

I’ve been trying to cope despite the harsh situation I’ve been going through.

I told you Supports what I need esp from you. Not coming ~~through at all.~~

Idk what you want, or rather whats expected of this. Since everyone’s only got awhile to live.

So whats th big fuss.

Trust&Love. Is one thing.

To understand why one did it is another.

You think I may have hurt you.

Well you did too. A couple of times.

Yeah im sensitive, Definitely.

Give what im going through I’ll go insane.

Quit flaring up at me, isn’t gonna make things any better.

Quit blaming yourself for things you didn’t do.

Only gonna make things worse.

I’ve learnt that in relationships its wrong to be playful.

Esp when your partners going through a lot.

A single word will have a thousand meaning to them.

A playful action will only bring hurt.

Well, Grow up susanna.

Your worse than a child.

Guess you didn’t know that could make an effect on me.

Just like when I said other things I didn’t think it would mean a lot to you.

See, its proven a playful action/word may make a big MISTAKE.

Talking about his/her past would make things worse.

Well thank-you J.

You’ve definitely thought me a lot.

~~Why love when theres no trust.~~

Give it time to grow.

Use me for th right reasons.

iloveyou.

it will all get better in time.

GOT MY ANSWERS(:

VAL LEE(:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

so why love when theres no trust?

Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:

it takes time alrighty(:

HANSEL (:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

why love when theres no trust.

Hansel n.n says:

no trust?

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

yeah

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

like will you still love that person if you dont trsut him/her

Hansel n.n says:

I would go with no.

Hansel n.n says:

relationships are established on trust

SAUYAN(:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

why love when theres no trust?

☮Pocketful of Sunshine says:

hahaha because you really love that person?

☮Pocketful of Sunshine says:

and you kept telling yourslef that the trust can be built up again?

EMILYY(:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

why love when theres no trust.

EMILY!(: says:

yaaa:D

EMILY!(: says:

in love you got to have trust

EMILY!(: says:

& honesty

SOKKK(:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

why love when theres no trust

I am sk. says:

yeah,if no trust,the love is not strong at all

GLENN (:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

why love when theres no trust

Gléññ says:

if love at 1st sight thing? NO...

but love from being friends to good friends to relationship? yes... because you'll reach a stage whereby you'll really care about that person and wants to help that person to change no matter what and is willing to try all ways to get that trust back asap, unless a person gives up HOPE of trying...

LORAINEEE(((:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

why love when theres no trust

- ❥LORAINE ; I love you so. says:

dont love when there's no trust.

- ❥LORAINE ; I love you so. says:

not worth.

MADEEE(:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

would you love a person if theere's no trust?

Diia. says:

than its not love

TIFFFOO(((:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

would you love a person if theere's no trust?

Tiffo says:

nope.

Tiffo says:

i mean, if i do trust that person, it goes to show that i believe in that person, and how the person i believe in would be someone that is close to, and trust me as well. so if im close to someone, of course i love him/her.

YANYAN(:

♥susanna; Long Gone says:

would you love a person if theere's no trust?

YANYAN; says:

thats what i think

YANYAN; says:

2008-05-02T04:14:00.000-07:00

~~1. If you had a chance to go out with the person you like and your favourite celebrity for the whole day(separately), what would you do?~~

*1. WHATS MY GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT SO FAR?

JAGGING EMMANUEL JOHN GREGORY (:

02. How do you feel now?
HYPER(: 24-7

03. If you can fulfil one wish , what would it be?
Study very hard (:

04. Who are you thankful to?
God, pat e jo (:, glenn, liz, tiffo.

PARENTS (:

*CATH CLASS BUDDIES (:

(more but its long)

05. Important wishes for now?
*Hope he's is fine & studies

* MYSELF TO STUDY!

06. If you can turn something in the past back , what would it be?
pause time on 19112007(:

07.What are your main priorities now?
*friends

*studies.

08.What makes you happy?
* bobby (:

& THAT LIVERPOOL LOST (:

09.What do you wanna change in you?
*stop being dammit hyper.

*be a study person

10. What song can represent your feelings now..?
*buttons (:

11.What type of person you like most?
*make me smile (:

* plays playground w me (:

12. Are there anything you wish to confess now?
IM SORRY DADDY, I KNOW I BROKE TH FAN

13. What is your definition of a dream house?
nothing much (:

*A BIG BIG HOUSE WITH 3 CARS

14. Who will you go to when you are feeling low one day?
Glenn. Chiang.

15.What you hope to achieve?
atleast my n lvl cert.

16.what age do you wish to marry?
26!!!!

17. who do you miss most currently?

*GRACE CHOO( BRACES FACE )

*LIZ CHNG( GILLIAN GOH'S PANTS)

*BEATRICE PNG( TH ONE WHO BANGED HER HAND IN CHURCH DAMM LOUD 10112007)

*ESTHER YEO.( TH MOTHER)

*JASPER ONG( AH BENG)

* MICHAEL ( STUPID SHORT STUFF )

*ABRAHAM(STARWARS)

*RICO ( BEING FUNNY, BUT NOT WORKING )

*BRANDON ( MR BEAN)

*TIFFANY ANG ( HUGGGGGIEE WAGGGIIIIIEEEE)

18.How many people made you angry for the past few days?

forgot

19. who are you going to kill after this survey?
TH ONE WHO TAGGED (:

GABRIEL (:

20. Do u agree that without money life can still go on as well as it is with.
try it then tell me.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above , and add in your personal question , Make it a total of 20 questions , then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post . Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever has the tag will have blessings from all

TAGGED (:

*LIZ CHNG (:

*CHIANG(:

*MARTIN (:

* TIFFO HUGGIE WAGGIE.(:

*AUDREY TAN (:

2008-05-01T01:41:00.001-07:00

Alrights,

Everything's normal (: , guess.

errr yahhh.

Had maths on Wednesday,

Then no school today (:

went fer mass tgt with phyllis henry& liz (:

Went 401 aft mass with reggie and family, perry, liz, emman, glenn,& ber (:

DAMIT STUPID 401 HAD CATS MAN ):

2008-04-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

Susanna needs peace
Susanna needs love
Susanna needs her family back together.
Susanna needs all her friends to not fight,
Susanna just needs to fucking hell be happy

Susanna needs alot of help and support.

2008-04-27T07:54:00.000-07:00

And thats all we bought.

okay not all.

update when im less tired

2008-04-24T04:54:00.000-07:00

HOGAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY(:

school was AWE-SOMEEEEE-OMMEEEE (:

hahahahahah!

laugh ALOT. ALOT. ALOT.

& FOUGHT ALOT ALOT ALOT. (:

ARM WRESTLE WITH EUNICE LEONG.

1-1): DAMMIT.

HAAHAHAHAHA! MAYBE SHE GAVE IN TO ME LUHS.

hahhaah!

im hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

hogayyy, exams tomorrow.

damit!

oh, wellios.

GOOD LUCK DOGS (:

HAHAHS (((:

ILYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

2008-04-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

School was awesome (:
loves.

im giving up everyone,
Theres a limit to everyones stress.
im going fer good.
my pills i need you now.
im going far away.
daddy dont care about me.
mummy dont care about me.
everyone dont care!
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NOT MY FAULT DONT BLAME ME!
PLEASE!

GRANDMA, WAIT FOR ME IM COMMING UP SOON
VERY SOON!
II SEE YOU KNW

2008-04-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

i dont want anything/ i dont need anything.

i wanna be alone.

forever & ever.

i dun eevn wanna blog anymore.

im sick and filthy!

i fucking dead uselss.

i dont know.

smoke.drink.

i'll do any of thoese again!

2008-04-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU ALL!

went fer 2.4 re-test,

Whole class except fer gillian passed.

LOLLL!

Met tiffo e dumbo,

Studied w her, then kenneth came. studied,

Then th rest,

went up fer class

First lesson was so-so.

FUNNY MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Ben, came later.

O-O-P!

THENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN..

met the rest at vending.

Was bored so i decided to play! aahahah!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

MAYBE I SHOULD TALK TO YOU LESS,

SINCE,

YOU'VE GOT SOMEONE(:

I THINKKKK.

I WILL MISS YOUR TEXT ):

NO MORE LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL/

WAKING UP EARLY I GUESS.

OH WELIOS.

IM STARTING TO HATE SOMEONE IN CHURCH!

IDKKKKK WHYYYYY

(((((((((((((((((((((((((:

GOOD DAY AHEAD.

I MIS NADINE ARMSTRONG!

I HAVENT SEEN HER IN YEARS):

2008-04-17T07:01:00.000-07:00

HOGAYYYYYYYYYY(:
So its like, met jing & shannen at green, GOT SCARED BY THEM
thanks uh guys.
(:
hahahs. uhhhh then yeah went to shop and save then got snacks.
Then shannen went to get her TEENAAGE MAG!? bahahaha.
Ohwelllas,
Then like reached her place, then sat down ate, and camwhoored..
WOOOHOOOOO,
me & jing & dear dear(:

SHANNEN'S DOG IS LIKE TRYING TO SQUEEZE IN BETWEEN ME AND HER ON TH FLOOR;
KNOW, i hope that we'll wake fer sch tomorrow (: ahahahhahs.

2008-04-17T03:38:00.000-07:00

Tonight will be th night i fall fer you(:

A girl like you is impossible to find.

I Miss You.

HOGAYY!

School was okayyy, Lesson were boring as usual.

Then remedial.

Wasnt paying attention(:

Apparently, this is like th last week for remedial,so i decided t slack through(:

Then went fer PFT,

Thanks to baby Ching, Giving me Pink panadols.

Made th cramps go away,

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT,

4A was being veh veh vehhh defiant.

So yes got into trouble.

LOLLLLLLL!

seeeing mrs elangovang tml.

MEANWHILE,

Me& Jing is like staying over at dear dear's placeeee(:

YIPPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

FUN FUN FUN!(:

HAPPY BIRTTHDAY JACKSON (:

<3333333333333333

2008-04-16T06:51:00.000-07:00

Hogayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,

So like school totally was NORMAL todayyyyy):

PFT tml): sucks dont know how im gonna do, but i dont care.

Since 4A all decided to fail(:

See, we're united much (:

Rained heavily.

DAM!

Alrightyyy,

Im off to fiinsih up my school work (:

I shall be a good girl.

Exams coomming DAMMMM DAMMM soon.

Goodnight world(:

I LOVE BABY NEHHHHH(:

2008-04-15T04:44:00.000-07:00

Passing out Parade ):
I'm officially done with SJAB,
No more going down to HQ,
No more Flag days.
No more Courses,
No more Division Meeting ):
Which totally sucks.
cause i will miss my batch,
SENIORS 2007-2008):
To those who have graduated,
CONGRATS (:
VERYYY SADDENING,
esp,
Slow march ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
trained for so long just for one day,

I WILL MISS POP TRAINING (:
MOSTLY I WILL MISS MY JUNIORS WHO ALWAYS GETS INTO TROUBLE.
hunt for Pamela Teng ):

Thank-you
Liz Chng for such heartwarming words,(:
If not for you, i wouldnt be in the contingent,
Shouting timing for th rest.
Thank-you so much my dear friend for giving me th perseverance
to stay on in SJAB,
I know you love my CPR (:
I will miss th dummy thou.
& lastly,
I wanna thank you for being in my life.
Helping me to make th proper choice.
I will miss you when i leave SJC ):
Dont be upset! RATHER YOU CANNOT BE!
Swim Swim Liz Chng, You can do it.
See la, you cry when i do slow march, make me cry tooo(:
You always bring me back on track liz, always encouraging me,
I love you la, (:
I WILL REALLY MISS YOU.
SIGHS,

- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
Hello! <33
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
Though you pass out already, our batch still misses you <3
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
you still must come back okay (:
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
Sec 3 ' 08 misses Sec 4 ' 08 !
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
awwww, dont worry i will k?
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
okay , i think i will miss your scoldings & your rubbish-nesss!
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
haha i will miss you guys being so naughty.
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
and me scolding
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
hahaha! SUSANNA SHOUTING HER LUNGS OUT
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
& sentences like
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
" YOU WAKE UP ALREADY A NOT?!!! "
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
" IS THIS THE ATTITUDE YOU SHOWED US "
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
HAHAHA!
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
LOL
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
correct?
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
yes yes.
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
i hate my timing.
- x3 JACINTHA ; - ™ says:
HAHAHA! whatever it is , you are a champion in our hearts <33
♥Susanna Never felt that way before says:
awwwwwwwwwwwwwww, thank you.

2008-04-13T08:41:00.000-07:00

Things are getting outta hand i guess,
Mama& Papa didnt fight for God knows how long.
& then thy fought today,
Thanks to th dam court letter.
So now, everyone has to be in court on 17/April/2007.
How nice, Jesse's birthday.
sucks sucks sucks sucks!
And then now Mama wants custody of me.
Actually i wanna go with mama,
but michie is like,
She dun want th sister t split up.
But its like I DUN WANNA STAY WITH YA'LL.
I WANNA STAY WITH MAMA.
i havent been happy AT ALL staying w you and daddy and jesse.
yes, i do love ya'll, I REALLY DO, in fact i would
Miss you guys if we would seperate,
I thought about it already and im really satisfied with my decision.
I wanna stay wit mama,
So please stop forcing me.
Please.
I hope you understand.

Im blogging this here,
Cause i know that
You both,
Michie& Jesse would come by.

To my Best sisters,
I love you both.

Love,
Suzan.

2008-04-12T21:00:00.000-07:00

Alright,
Yesterday met cheston & glenn at compass, went to get gabs present.
Then waited for Amelia, Emman, Nana&Sachs.
Then headed down t Pasir Ris with then (:
Then left at about 10+ with them.
Went home & slept.
long long due t the tired camp ):
This morning woke up, mommy came home (:
HAHAS, so mummy's heading down to St Joseph's church there.
Go some procession going on ltr.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARTIN (:

2008-04-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

YO (:

So yes, currently i just finished studying.
Hopefully something got into my brains.
ughhh i havent been studying th right way.
i need to do it soon.
BUT,
i dont know how to studyyy ):

Crap la,
I cant play anymore la.

(:
So yes, doctor-ed this morning,
then went t study at amk with b,
Its was rather not Successful.
Uh, So yes, B wanted to text to macs
Saying Susanna is a bum. Loves hubby.
WTHHHHHH!
(:
AHAHAHA,

OH FINALLY BOBBY BOY WENT FER GROOMING (:
looks better.

BADSIDE OF TELLING GABRIEL TO SLEEP EARLY

ber. PEACE(: says:
so naggy. worst than my mum.

BRIGHT SIDE WHEN I CRY TO GABRIEL

♥Susanna It feels good. says:
eyhhh, i wanted ask you something impt but i forgot.
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
))))))):
ber. PEACE(: says:
o.O?
ber. PEACE(: says:
slowly think then. msg me then you rmb.
ber. PEACE(: says:
hahs
ber. PEACE(: says:
time for bed alrd??
ber. PEACE(: says:
Lol
ber. PEACE(: says:
tired much.
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
hahas, reminf me tml?
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
remind*
ber. PEACE(: says:
Lol
ber. PEACE(: says:
like how t remind you.
ber. PEACE(: says:
i dont even know what you forgot
ber. PEACE(: says:
HAhaha
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
text me tml.
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
hahas.
ber. PEACE(: says:
you msg me luh.
ber. PEACE(: says:
lol
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
hahha, no la. you msg me,
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
hahahahaahaha.
ber. PEACE(: says:
Nooo.....You msg me.
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
noooo.. you msg me
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
you got 2k freee.
ber. PEACE(: says:
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo......................you msg me.....
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))':
ber. PEACE(: says:
HAhahhaha.
ber. PEACE(: says:
OKAy la okay la!
ber. PEACE(: says:
anth.
ber. PEACE(: says:
Lol
♥Susanna It feels good. says:
YAY (:

IM GONNA EAT & THEN SLEEP (:

SEE GABRIEL IM GONNA EATT (:
&
I'VE BEEN STUDYING KNOW ((:

2008-04-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

THINGS ARE CHANGING.
i dont know what i feel anymore.

2008-04-08T16:32:00.000-07:00

Alrights,
So basically, i ATTEMPTED to blog yesterday.
Signed in and everything, then i went to bathe.
Eat awhile & sat down to watch TV.
2 minutes later
KNOCK OUT(:
hahhahaha

Yes, im currently online IN TH MORNING (:

♥Susanna Realise my love for you got stronger. says:
ily.
NANA ♥ ; her pseudo smiles & contradicting feelings says:
ilyt

Talked to nana,
So yes

Yesterday's lesson were okayy! slept in maths and EOA (: ahhahaa
super tired.
i cant seem to feel awake no matter what time i sleep ):
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I NEED TO START STUDYING
..

Cheer up Baby (:

2008-04-06T04:02:00.000-07:00

Sunday,
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN LIZ CHNG (:

Im feeling high,
i've been blasting techno th whole day ((:
I just found out that HIHS has a new uni.
LOL thanks to val val lee (:
Yippie(:
Oh ya, Thanks dearest (:

Actually val has a point
7 more hours and its fun again (:
&
5 more months & im free (:
i shall persevere((:

Aiyoooo,
so many april babies sia.
11-Ching & Gladdys
13- martin
16-Oriana
17-Jesse (:
19-Val val Lee (:

GOSHHHH!

Bless me man lord.
((:

UG Camp from 11-12(:

Oh yes, Tour at th end of december.
With friend (:
gonna be fun ya'll (:

2008-04-05T07:42:00.001-07:00

Baby asked me a question that totally hit me right on th back,

Baby: Something which you said just now i really true.. A man with no emotions .. I see everyone dancing with th music including my dad and mum.. Old, Young.. But not me
Everyone smiles and laughs easily,but not me.
Everyone's a Joker, except me..I really got no life, Why you wanna be with me?

Me: Baby, I dont care about anything as long as i love you, Thats all i care about,

Churched today, Lesson and nothing much.
Boring rather,
Met baby fer dinner aft class,
Glenn was being RATHER STRONG TODYAY
anyways,
who cares abt him.
So yes, baby and i went to macs then had dinner,
Went t playground,then yes.
(:
left at around 9+
& homed ((:

Somethings gotten into me.
Somehow i dont feel th importance of anything.
Everyones sounding rather weird there.

ANYWAYS.

HAPPY ADVANCE SWEET SIXTEEN TO LIZ CHNG.
GOD BLESS YOU (:
I LOVE YOU.

2008-03-31T06:19:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHA GLENN(:

PEEKTURES WITH BABY GIL & STEPHY.
BLOG TONIGHT (:

Packed for the week
UGHHHHH!

* [Tomorrow]
Make-up lessons from 2.45-3.45 pm.
*[Wednesday]
POP training 4-6
*[Thursday]
Remedial2.45-3.45
*[Friday]
CCA 3.00-6.30

15APRIL2008
I CANT WAITTTTT.

2008-03-30T18:27:00.000-07:00

Holaaa all((:
Uh-huh, bloggin in school again.
I see Fiqah Blogging too,
[ mind we dont get caught huh.]
While pats trying to get her video.
[ HIII PATTT (:]
I think she's super weird please,
kayss,this is the whole things, the coursework video is about, clothes,
and our dearest pat here went to put a picture of A DESSERT?! totally no link please?!hahaahahhahahaha,
Monday blues againnnn!

OFF TO PRINT COURSEWORK (:
hAVE A GREAT DAY YA'LL ((((:

yAY.. SOMEONE STOPS SOMETHING TODAY (((((((((((((((((:

2008-03-28T19:07:00.000-07:00

Morning all (: / ):

So yes, something UNWANTED, happened yst.
Idk, what to say about so i guess im just gonna shut up already.
Thankyou alot of people,
You guys were vehh sweet even thou ya'll dont know what happened.

Thank-you
*NANA(:
*GABRIEL (:
*EMMAN (:
*TIFFO (:
*KENNETH YEO (:
* MARTIN (:

Conference was pretty funny yesterday.
Emman called at about 11plus?
Then Kenneth yeo called,
HHAAHAH stupid okay

Kenneth : hello (:
Emman : hi
Me : hello(:

2 seconds later

Kenneth: eh i call you guys back.

In th background

Kenneth's (mom): " KENNETH HAVE YOU BATHED?![ screams angrily]

Emman : HUH!? HE HAVEN'T BATHE? SMELLY PIG! *MAKES FUN OF HIM*

Then,

Tiffo called.
ahahahahaha
The dumb emman thinking tiffo was kenneth

Tiffo: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Susanna : hello (:
Emman: eh you bath already anot ah
Tiffo: yahhh.
Emman: huh?! who are you?
me: ahahahahaha Tiffo la dog

---- EMMAN'S GET EMMBRASSED-----

eVERYONES LAUGHS LIKE MAD ON TH PHONE.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OKAYYYY.
seriously, thy cheered me up (:

Singapore River later,
I dont wanna cry.

You said you'll be my all,
Guess things are different now,
When my visions were blur, you helped me.
Now theres no one to turn to.
When my eyes were filled with tears,
You helped me up again.
When my faith fell.
You brought it up.
You were my all,
MY best friend, And my parent.
I held you tightly not wanting to give up.
Till death do us part.
We were suppose to be.
prefect why not?
We hardly argued over petty things.
I gave you my heart,
You accepted it unconditionally.
Each loving day, i was with you,
never rained.
promises were broken,
hearts weren't shattered,
why cant we hold on.
Baby, you were th best part of th day.
Calling you was never a chore but a want.
And i will take,
You,
Accept you with nothing expected.
Every word you said were true.

&
~~Now its just a lie.~~
just a heartbeat

others got a second chance,
Will i?

i will wait.
you know i will.

2008-03-26T18:17:00.000-07:00

School's been full of ups& downs,
Somehow something got me thinking yesterday.

Not everyone's fit for school.
Not everyone's fit for work,
People's changing,
im sure I've changed greatly.
I dont realize.
The days are going too fast now.
It seems like i was only Primary 6 yesterday,
Preparing for my Leaving Examination.
Full of laughter & stressful moments. I got through them.
Everyones changing greatly, Parents end up getting a divorce.
You fail you National/Ordinary Level examination
when you studied extreme hard.
You give up on life.
Rather,
You dont know which route to take,
In fear you may make the wrong decision.
You pray,
Your prayers dont seem to be answered.
Tell him/her,
you need her there.
God's watching you.
Dont be disappointed.
It's alright to make mistakes.
Learn from those.
You'll excel.

2008-03-26T04:59:00.000-07:00

susanna fell sick with her stupid cramps ):

everyone bless her& wish her all th best!
IM GONNA DIE BIG TIME (:
GOODLUCK SUSANNA ARTHUR DANIEL (:

OH FUCK FUCK FUCK!

2008-03-24T06:08:00.000-07:00

back home (: / ):

Went to kovan with D, realised that it was SUPER PLAIN ):
Then trained down to PS (:
hahahaha went spotlight and D went NUTZXZ((((:
Good to see him laugh(:
Uh-huh, then martin came,
Ate then studieed
NONO, i mean
I STUDIED, Martin did tooo. hahaahha half asleep (:
D was sleeping th whole way please! hahahahaha(:
then trained home, And rushed home t catch arena (((:
SJC ROCKS HARDCORE PLEASEEEEAHHHH(:

Yeahhh, onlining nowwwww.
DAMIT ive got the I DONT WANNNA GO SCHOOL TOMORRROW attitude ):

Val's ddamit sweet please (:

Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:
(:
Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:
alright(:
Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:
i miss you so much la.
Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:
i think i haven seen u in like 123456789 days
Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:
haha
♥Susanna I'm walking away says:
hahasahah
♥Susanna I'm walking away says:
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Paper Bags And Plastic Hearts. says:
(:
♥Susanna I'm walking away says:
(:

2008-03-23T18:57:00.000-07:00

MONDAY-BACK-TO-SCHOOL):
OKAYY, school's been okay till now,
D isnt at work,
GET WELL SOON D(:
ilyyy D ((:
IM DONE WITH COURSE WORK(: YIPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
HELLO PAT

** i miss church people veh badly ):

study study with martin later(:
emman too(:
maybe D (:

2008-03-23T07:15:00.000-07:00

yeah, so i guess i kinda locked my blog up(:
Good and Bad, so yeahh
i guess whoever who is invited are those whom i can sincerely, trust alt(:

Yeah guess i've been pretty upset cause of many things, not only you D.
so yeah, well seriously gotta thank you peeps alot alot.
Tiffo, Martin, D, Gabriel, Glenn, Loraine, my baby Chaing,liz

Uh-huh, You guys are all super important and all. Yeah.
So yeah reason why i locked my blog?
ummm, cause yeahh i guess alot of things are starting to get more personal.
and i guess you guys are whom i can really turn too,

Tiffo(:
Thanks for giving me that shoulder on Maundy Thursday,
Yeah really needed that one, thanks alot.
iloveyou
darling :D

Martin(:
YOYO(:
oh well, seriously talking to you today really helped me alot aloy okayyy! gave me so much courage la please! please please cheer up(:
you promised yea
ily(:

D(:
i guess i miss you veh much, but yeahhh.
You better take care okayyy?
Your th besttt(:
D all th wayyyy((((:
stop being so stressed la wahlauuuu.
D's th sweetest I've ever known(:
<333!
i love you D (:

Gabriel(:
yoyo!
you uhhhhhhhhhhh.
hmmm study veryy veryyy hard kkz?
our promise remember??
yay 5 more months fer me,
hahahhaha 1 more year fer you
neh neh ni pu pu(((:
ily friend.

Glenn(:
Buddy ((:
See im nice.
hahahah i've trusted you all along(:
yippie better take care of your health k?
stop running la wahlauuu.
ily buddy(:

Loraine(:
jie jie((:
<3333
YAY YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
hahahha many ups and downs(:
yeahhh fuck everything tht happens alrdy manzxzxz!
hahahahaa
yay!
ily you manzxzxzx(:

baby chaing (:
hello baby!
imyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
big hugs tml(:
yippie. ahahhaha
omg stop watching
S pop la wahlauuu
eh eh my ****** itchy.

liz(:
lizzie wizzieeee (:
yoyyoyooy.
lets get high veh soon again
usher and all with lynnn
shhhhhhhhhhh
*inside jokes*
ily backside(:

* one more person fer me t add
NANA WANANAN(:

2008-03-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

Holy Saturday

WAS AWESOMEEEEE!
massed with phyllis, jasper, kenneth, cheston & tiffo joined later.
ahahah talked about pee-ing and all,
yeah overall was fun (:

2008-03-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

"WHERE DID YOUR FRIENDS COME FROM NOW"
"oh G i just need someone to talk to, theyy are not taklking to me"
WOW I MADE NEW FRENS
funny much,
HA! went t th wrong person i guess!
so much fer going around spreading fuck shit right?
Now, people know th truth and yeah sorry THEY BELIEVE ME,
ha why would thy believe you oh-so-ptiful story anyways
WAIT IT ISNT EVEN TRUE THAT TH BEST PART.
you started it, now you've got it RIGHT BACK ONTO YOUR FACE,
cunning much,

2008-03-21T03:41:00.000-07:00

Good Friday.

Yeah, met up w Brandon,Kenneth& Emman fer lunch.
Ate at LJS, No meat[:
Walked back to church, Then Nana, called.
Met her at SALT board Then attended mass w Her, Amelia,& Parents(hers).
Hmmm so mass was rather interesting thou,
Okay at least fer me?
Then Met D fer awhile? walked t plaza, Then yeahhhhh.
Bused Home ALONE!):
I am feeling rather weak,

i miss you):
i have got your smell on me now,
i wish i could have never let go.

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry

I could never let you go

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
And after all that you've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you, baby

2008-03-20T20:26:00.000-07:00

Maundy Thursday,

Church-ed with tiffo(:
Mass was okayyy, ended at 8.23?
Went up fer salt,
Yeah that was awesome.
Hmmm. People cried so did i.
Cheerrr up Reggie,
You'll Be fine.
Liz=unexpected.
Tiffo= thanks fer lennding me that shoulder..
GRL=hey, i wanted t speak to you yst, thought you were comming fer salt,
oh well, forget it.i hope my dream wont come true please.i prayed fer you yst,
only you, cause only you came t my mind,

Somehow you still don't get it,
c'mon you think you only helped me?
please i helped you out on alt okay,
i even fought with my best friend just t help you la.
Yah, why wouldn't i raise my dam voice, because you weren't listening.
I told you so many times, you said you'll know what t do,
then whenever i/your best friends told you anything DID YOU LISTEN?
NO!?
obviously I'll get angry right? please la, everyone TRIED to tell you and all,
Who was there when you needed someone to talk to abt R and all,
you wanna compare who helped who more?
& about going out w me.
Who was th one calling me out most of th times?
please lah, then you go and tell people what I am doing to you,
did you even tell them WHY?! of cause not right? please la.
You'd obviously wanna make Me be the wrong person right?
Called G out all, You knew what happened to us on th day right?
but you had to call him, made him buy you fags all,Gosh,
and since when did you start fagging anyways.
The reason why i got so pissed off with you was cause after R YOU, jolly well said that im gonna concentrate on my studies.
Fine,
Then S came along, You said you were only gonna main(malay) with her.
WHAT HAPPEN?
Even i told you that day
"G,i feel so confused for you."
Dont you think you got yourself into this mess?
& when we tell you whatt t do, it doesn't even register in your head.
you claim that you know what your doing & all? Goshhhh, please.
You've changed alot,
Since when malay interested you?
for all th times i have helped you right?
Oh, what happen t the things that you've said about P and all? guess that
fell down th toilet bowl.
To think i helped you with
L righttt? HA, help you get sticks and all

"Well, I never wanna talk t you ever again"-from your blog,
You said it,
You want it
YOU'LL HAVE IT.

SO DONT GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE THAT I AINT TALKIING TO YOU,
CAUSE YOU JOLLY WELL SAID IT ON YOUR DARN BLOG OKAY!
" i need someone to talk to"
Turns out that you've told th whole world.
Nice Job,
Ha, From school t church! WOW!
no one to talk t huh?
so where did P, S, R, go to?

now wanna ask ppl to read my blog come come i'll give you the link
http://renamemylove.blogspot.com

"maybe this will help"

Are you depressed and about to give up on life? Well this dvd shows you how to be EMO!

Songs used:

Disturbed - Down with the sickness
Fergie - Clumsy

Yabo Crew - The EMO Song!
Lyrics:

E is for emotional, ruins everybody's day.
M is for miserable people!
O is for on the dark side, cus we have some fresh cookies. (COOKIES)
WOO!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pK4bLMd0avU

2008-03-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hi, Today i met a new friend.
He is called GLENN LIM[:
I need not speak for him,
His picture speaks for himself.
God Bless You Glenn.

2008-03-18T03:24:00.000-07:00

School totally sucked today]]:
fucking cramps everywhere larhs! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
th best part hard t climb from basement to th fourth floor!
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
]]]]':

i never saw this comming]:
i hope you'll be fine. without me
hell yea, it'll be a great diff.
For me if not you.
I wanted to talk to you very badly online.
I am really wondering how are you.
Have you eaten?
its not over if you believe.
i hope.
can you know that i still love you very much.
i bet you doubt that line.
my heart knows the truth.

2008-03-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

School was okayy more to being normal.
Felt the same except that EL was funny today.
LOL! let me share

Mrs Soh: Okay who's number 3
Class: SHIRLEYYYYY![SHOUTS]
Shirley: OH NO!
Mrs Soh: okay explain!
Shirley: i dont know laaa.
Me: wahlauu dont know ='s to never ready lah! waste time
Shirley : LOVE SICK! [shouts confidentaly]
Eunice:*****[ scolds her in dialect ]WHAT LOVE SICK!
SUSANNA: ***k you la what love sick all!
Shirley: dissapointed
Mrs Soh: okay nevermind,

im off to study[:

5th time that i fell down in school]:

2008-03-13T23:41:00.001-07:00

"Over the years, there have been many things I've wished I could say or regretted not saying to various people in my life. I've heard many elderly people confess that, towards the end of their lives, they realize that their biggest regrets are the things they didn't do rather than the things they did. So, with the intention of having no regrets, I'm going to put them all here; I doubt that any of them will ever be read by the people in question but I think it would be healing to get them out of my system once and for all."

to mama-
~~I know that there are many things that arent~~
I understand whatver that your going through right now.
Somehow this things arent very easy. Daddy and th rest at home
arent giving you an easy time at all.
I am hurt about th decision that you've made.
Well, to speak th truth this isnt th first time ,something
like this took place. Im not very happy about this decision
However , mummy i will respect your decision.
Even though sisters & daddy despise you for whatever your doing,
i hope you know that I LOVE YOU forever. It's happiness that you long for.
Im not going to stop you.Mummy, i know that if you love me
you'd return fer me
after th divorce. I promise you that i'll be a good girl.
and wait patiently. You explained once, its not that i don't wanna take you in.
But i cant! Mummy i do undertsand. I really do.
No matter what I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU.
& When im bigger, and old enough t take care of you;
I will, from th day you live with me till your no longer breathing.
Mummy, i promise t send you off properly. Since you let me in so peacefully.
I'd do th same. Not for people to say that im an faithful daughter. But because i REALLY
love you,
Mummy, Your th only person i entrust my love & everything to,
Thank-you for brining me up the girl i am today.
Without, I wouldn't know who to turn to.
Mama, you were there whenever i needed you.
Th first t rush t th hospital when i was in.
Th First t hold me in your arms when i cry.
Th first to see when i opened my eyes.
Th ever first women in my life.

i'll continue when i'm better.

2008-03-13T19:18:00.000-07:00

Firstly,
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN GLORIA[:
be good yeaa, now that your an year older.
make wiser choice. Your capable of that.
study hard, O's comming very soon.
Dont play alrdy okayy?

ily very much.

Secondly,

yes women, i miss you ALOT!

nothing's been getting better in my life.
oh well, lets just wait & see what god has planned for me.
seriously, if anyone should be blamed then i guess it should jolly well, be ME!
so i guess, this post has gotta wake me up from th long dream i've been living in.
oh well, Susanna,
it's N levels, what happened to th study dam hard susanna. score in everything that you did,
c'mon it's only 1 week and your forgetting studies already.whats wrong with you.
Everyone tell you to study hard. Do you listen? they can only say, but th one who is going to go through is you.
So you can either wake up and do it, or just fail your levels thru.
th choice is yours.
like i said th choice is mine.

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need, oh
Can you see what I see?

2008-03-12T23:49:00.001-07:00

Last day of CCA, cause comp's in a few days time.
polishing leather shoe's are super hard okay!
UGHHH!
oh well, time flies damm fast la.
Somehow me and tiffo were thinking if we should go kovan, then after much thinking we decided not too.
OMG, the rain's freaking turn off la.. wahlauuu!
I need entertainment! somehow,
SHE isnt online! dammit!
LALALALAL!
Getting th stuff's done fer th NA&NC teams with cecelia and joey tomorrow.
hopefully we have th time, If not, i dont know how already.
GOSH!
IM DAMIT TIRED!
I SHALL GO NAP.
& THEN HOPEFULLY I CAN WAKE UP AT 0530[:
YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
GOODNIGHT. NOT REALLY NIGHT
people[:

Seeing you today is seriously TURN OFF siaaaa.
No wonder we all fell today
damit.
yucks yucks yucks.
sometimes i wonder why do you go t church;
oh well, God bless you.
knowing that im not th only one that hates you MADE MY DAY BETTER[:
YAY TO PEOPLE WHO HATE THAT WOMEN[:
you made us hate you.
who to blame?
HAHAHAAHAH,
YOUR OWN STUPID-SELF[:

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

2008-03-12T04:27:00.000-07:00

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

i dont wanna talk about today!

comp in 3 days[:
jiayou one and all["

2008-03-11T19:09:00.000-07:00

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide.
Do you realize what's happening?

Yesterday was awesome much; shall upload peektures soon[:
thanks PING for brining us both in&out.
HAHAHAHA [: I JUST REALISED THAT PING'S SHORTER.
wohoooo.oh well, LLALALA im bored la dey.
School later on. God knows whats gonna happen.
part of me's missing.
somehow, somewhere, something seems wrong.
songs on th radio can really bring back memories.
I HATE THAT.
but thank-you 98.7 [:

perry-werry[:
hello,you! It's early in th morning,
and thanks for knocking some hard
sense into me, well looking back on it know,
whatever you said really makes sense.
yeah, maybe i was just thinking too much.
There's more than whats people's reaction about,
oh well, thank-you big time. ily much,

Audrey[:
YOU YOU! your late fer school hurry hurry la backside.
oh well, seriously, thanks alot for making me laugh alot alot.
like yeah, thanks fer hearing me rant and rant too.
& also telling me what t do abt my problems. Yeah, i really needed those
advice about_________.
thank-you big time.ily much!

SOMEONE'S COMMING BACK TODAYYY
GABRIELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL[:
th neither smart not dumb one[:

2008-03-10T21:46:00.000-07:00

My Blog's Been Killing Me Recently,
Oh Whatever,

Didnt School today, went dental, have to return again!
DARN IT ]':

NC&NA TEAMS;
hey ya'll Goodluck aiite? do you darn best for th comp.
Trust in one another. Im sure you guys will score[:
Dont worry darling, half th battle has alrdy been won, by you guys, stepping up to
tAke the trouble to join, despite th challenging timetable everyone has t face,
You are doing better than you think you guys are doing.
Jiayou, C'mon the championship trophy is so going to be in your hands.
Make SJAB proud[:
Regardless, of results You all are already winners to us.
GoodLuck.I LOVE YOU ALL[:

Oh well, chalet later i think.
Nothing much's been happening.
I just Have this very very weird
feeeling that i'd only wanna be around
either, Audrey, Chiang, Gloria, &Tiffany. gabriel L[who isn't in town now]
IDK why, oh well, nothing has been good.
/everythings just getting worst each day.
M tooth hurts very badly.
I wanna cry,
oh well,
GABRIEL'S COMMING BACK TOMORROW!

Tiffany;
hello dearest, like finally i got to talk to you.
After ages. idk why, but its good that we finally talked i guess?
uh-huh, hopefully our plan works out.
Sadly, this is happening because of you-know-who.
UGH, as long as she's there. I'm staying away la.
Oh well, Take Care. ILY[:
" I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long"

2008-03-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

goodnight tiny weeny darlings of mine[:

let th world sleep in peace

IM SO GONNA CALL NOKIA TOMORROW[:
call my house t remind me please people!

i hope there's reception!!!

2008-03-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

Everything's Been hogay of late, i guess.
Oh well, Busy Busy this week. Dont even feel like it is holidays larhs!
UGHHHHHHHHH! [: Texted Shar th whole of today![: FUN FUN FUN!
oh well, INSIDE JOKES!

Holiday's
been freaking boring &not to mention DARN QUIET!
NO MORE CLASS=NO MROE PE=NO MORE FLOORBALL=NO MORE INJURIES = [:
NO MORE INJUIRES ALSO= NO MORE FUN!
See 4A is farking fun[:
school without Patricia, Clarelyn, Stepahnie , Jing Mei, Marie , Shannen , Eunice , Cherie, Mable totally sucks

BLAH!
i feel so ______________.
i dont know why? so many dam things
happening so fast.
Oh well, i hope things become better.
WAY WAY!

This weeks busy busy:

Monday&Tuesday : Course
Wednesday : Chalet,
Thursday : comp prep.
Friday : Gloria's birthday & Comp prep [ Cecelia's house]
Saturday : Competition.

So Freaking Fast.
God Bless Me & Oh, Gabriel.

HURRY COME BACK YO!

i do miss it! yes i do.
oh well,
GOD GRANT ME DARN TIME MACHINE!

2008-03-08T04:43:00.001-08:00

Today was alright. Nothing much i guess. KOTO th morning.. thenn went off to meet jing, stephy & pat for CIP[: Went IT fair.. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA*big jokes!*
Gabriel know's why IF HE WAS LISTENING! hahahaha,
Then Mass-ed With Gabriel& Abraham[:
Then Bus-ed home with Gabriel!
OH OH! i make a discovery!
GABRIEL ISNT VERY SMART NEITHER IS HE VERY DUMB!
JUST TH RIGHT AMOUNT OF KNOWLEDGE!
my attempts of tricking him SERIOUSLY failed larhhh!
DAMIT!
oh well, Thanks For Being Evil To Me in Th Bus[:

oh oh,
good trip Gabriel [:
(try to come back in 1 piece, you don't have to larh)
hahahha
not with my clip but with my charger[:

2008-03-06T08:28:00.000-08:00

BACKKK YA'LL[[:

School tomorrow & im not sleeping yet]: oh well, after i blog..

A. List seven habits/ quirks/ facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

7 habits/ quirks / facts.

1. I get bored easily.
2. I can't stop talking.
3. I HATE COCKROACH to th max!
4. I'm addicted to vicks ( does wonders) [:
5. I'm pretty much RANDOM[:
6. I HATE someone t th max but no one knows who it is[[:
7. I'm Seriously not a dam sleeping person!

I TAG YOU[:
*Rachel Chaing [:
*Gloria N [:
* Tiffo th Dumbo [:
*Loraine Hew [:
* Kwang Sauyan ( drangonnnnn) [:
*Martin Goh ( TB) [:
* Toy Know Who You Are[:

2008-03-03T05:48:00.001-08:00

convo with stephy[:
i love you very very much darlinng!

STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! just sent you a nudge.
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: sup.
♥Susanna you were all i needed. sends: STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: look at my nick!
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: HAHAHHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF Transfer of "88 bo bian 2.jpg" is complete. STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: hahahs STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: must take care ok STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: anything just email!
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahha okayys[:
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: we the 88 bo bian will fly der to fight for u!
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahahahahaa
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: hahahas STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: and no worries. the bus sure very clean
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: HAHAA
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: of cos
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: my chief number 3 clean de ma STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: hahahas yalaaaaaaaaaaa
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahaahh
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: seriously ah STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: u this tao eh
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: WE, 88 BO BIAN STEADY DE.
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: like only noe how to eat and talk sia
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: ahahaha
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: eyhhhh
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: we as 1 gang. must tgt help ma
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: ya right! you got help me pick up litters before meh?
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: i tao eh
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: how can pick up.
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: DEN U STILL SAY MUST TGT HELP
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: HELP UR BACKSIDE LA STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: lolol
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: if got problem la
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: ohh
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: chey
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahahhaaha
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: tao eh
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: i see ur heart now man
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahahahahaahha
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahaaah
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: the fuck/
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: true wad
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: i serve ur bus wholeheartedly eh
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: and i just wan my put to be change only
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: TATS ALL I ONLY WAN!
STEPHANIE❤ - ill sure miss my tao eh!, i will work hard and pick up the litters and give it to jing mei! says: but u cant give it to me
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: hahahahahahhaha
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says: when i come back i will.

convo with audrey[:

Intact; discrimination says:

Intact; discrimination says:
can see?
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
THE HELL!
Intact; discrimination says:
what!@
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
nice nice[:
Intact; discrimination says:
grrr
Intact; discrimination says:
of course~
Intact; discrimination says:
-beams-
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
hahahahaha
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
*rolls eyes*
Intact; discrimination says:
sniffs
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
hahahahaa
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
*hugs audrey*
Intact; discrimination says:
-hugs back the skinny sussanna, almost skinand bones-
♥Susanna you were all i needed. says:
*tskkk hugs the short audrey back, too short t feel her*

2008-03-03T04:52:00.001-08:00

i will miss you guys very badly.

my 88 Bo Bian!

Clarelyn, Patricia, Stephanie & Jing mei[:

2008-03-01T20:41:00.000-08:00

I hardly Have Anything To Speak To You

SJS rally was Awesome yesterday [:
We all know why?
SAINT ANNES WAS TH BOMB KAYS!
Oh yeah. Alrights CIP was BAD BAD BAD!
ughhh dun wanna talk about it!
SUCKS!
Nothing much t blog i guess?

2 more days!

I Regretted;

2008-02-29T04:05:00.000-08:00

[career seminar photos]

when you though that you knew where you were heading to, someone throws a bomb on you.

School was okay, i guess. Recently it is like th usual.
Like lessons.. &lessons. Recesses was belardi badddd kays!
ughhhhh! PUKED everything out]]': i dont know whats wrong with me.
Yet to see th doctor yet. DIE DIE!
Yeah, went for career seminar [: FUN FUN FUN! camwhored alot alot.
shall upload pictures.

2008-02-28T05:03:00.000-08:00

Now i know that i was always worthy of your love[:

School was normal again.
So simple laa deyyyyyy. So yeah, had BORING LESSONS TODAY
except maths. Did like 10 year series th whole day[: AWESOMEEEEE.
To think of it Sec4 life don't suck![[[:
So yeah, went for remedial after school! BELARDDI AWESOMEEE
everyone early this time[:
Then stayed back till late late like 6.30 then walked t compass with audreyyy!
she's a FUNNEH BUNNEH OKAYYY! made me laugh ALOT ALOT!
thanks yo![:
thennn yi ping came behind.. So yea, then bus-ed home! [:
Got annoyed on th wayyy!
thanks uh!like i really wanted t know what you guys did!
i dont care!
i shall rest early tonight[:

4 more days to tiomannnn[[:
MAMAH BRING ME OVERRRR[[[[[[[:

i will miss school]]]:

2008-02-27T04:17:00.000-08:00

life's been so fucked up,imagine loosing your everything.
you know where your heading to, turn on your headlights.

school was okayyyy, nothing much happened pretty normal.
Left class at 1.30 for heats! i guess, heats was okayyy.
not much t be done. Audrey, well done yo!.
Then some house near th stadium caught fire..
Bused with Liz Chng[: i miss her alot alot.
we agreed t go crazy this saturday![:
Then came home, showered when t meet gloria &...
left them two while i bused home.
then played with bobby awhile then showered & dinner-ed.
ONLINING [:
thanks audrey for making smiles yo!
ily! do take care of your leg yea?

goodnight!

i know you see it coming.
being ignorant wont help!

not bad for a start!

2008-02-26T04:50:00.000-08:00

i've been pretty confused for a long time already, confused about what?
thats what i dont know.
Thats wonderful

school was awesomee, had PE with 3A that mean had PE with didi<33! I TOLD YOU 4A ROCKS! yeahh, then went for recess [: ate ate but end up puking all out so yeah, didnt make a diifff! haaha! so yeahh then RE rocked laaaa. finally like We 3 got back tgt.

GILLIAN,STEPHY&ME[:
miss them alot alot[:
before stephy beffy had braces!

Then like yeahhh, had monitor investiture! GO MONITORS OF 4A![ dont get tortured by us]
its funny cause nobody wants t be a monitor that they were pretty much forced into it! we all know why!
oh!
GO LIZ CHNG[:

goodnight[:

told you i went insane without you;
i need you badly.

2008-02-25T02:09:00.000-08:00

berat bebanku meninggalkanmu
separuh nafas jiwaku sirna

bujan salahmu apa dayaku
mungkin benar cinta sejati
tak berpihak pada kita

kasihku sampai di sini kisah kita
jangan tangisi keadaannya
bukan karena kita berbeda

dengarkan, dengarkan lagu-lagu ini
melodi rintihan hati ini
kisah kita berakhir di januari

selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku
ooo pergilah

Every Kiss & Every Hug,

2008-02-24T18:06:00.000-08:00

BOOOYAAHHH[:

hogayyy so like, hahahahah everyone's having N'levels coursework!

im doing but blogging too! damit bored la![: i bet fiqah just blogged too!

hahha! the class is like freaking awesomeee laa![:

having such good buddies like

pat,clarelyn,gillian,marie, rach C,jing, shannen,mabel,eunice,cherie[:

OH FINALLY KIRAN CAME T SCHOOL[[[:

10.10 DAMIIT 20 MORE MINS T STOP COURSEWORK;

SO AWESOMEEE IM LIKE LEFT ONLY WITH ORDERFORM I THINKKK.

I SHAL DOO!

SJS ON SAT!

HMMM STILL THINKING.

MAYBE WITH LIZ & ALL!

I MISS SAINT ANNES CHURCH BUDDIES YA'LL!

RELIVE DAM MOMENTS ON SAT!

2008-02-24T00:55:00.000-08:00

Currently everything seems to be pissing me off very badly!
idkkk, maybe because i cant stop comparing?
myself t her, ughhhhhhhhh maybe im better than him/her? or maybe its th other way!
im not very sure!
online chats with _____[it isnt who you think it is, so dont guess, ask me maybe i will say]
hasnt been verh well off,
haixxxx, maybe its just his/her___.

FUCKING COLD SHOULDERS CAN JUST GO AND DIE!
i've got enough of keeping things within myself &acting dumb when
you just kept going on &on!
i never said a thing caused i didnt wanna argue with you;
im really not happy with the way you speak!
well, not only towards me!
ughhhhh!
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!
BITCH BITCH BITCH!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!
I DONT LIKE YOU!
I DONT FUCKING LIKE YOU!
I DONT FUCKING LIKE YOU ANYMORE!
if i cry! im stupid! why cry over an asshole like you?

oh mama i've got so many things t scream,will you be here?

* i heared praying helps!

oh well, god, hear me when i speak!

*IT REALLY ISNT WHO YOU THINK IT IS!
I KNOW YOU THINK ITS YOU! BUT IT ISNT!
ASK ME MAYBE I WILL SAY

i miss you verh much!]:

2008-02-22T04:38:00.000-08:00

Alrights,
i guess CCA isnt that bad after all, kinda wait verh funny i guess?
im starting to like it again! yippieeee! ohoh, take care gail[:
yes, then like after cca camwhored with everyone! shall update pictures verh soon[:
LOLLLL, then bused home with pat marianne, stopped outside school with husaband! haha saw ben ben[[: so long nerh see her! he's fucking strong pleasee... ahahahaha
STUDY HARD BENNN![[: i wont wait for you!
Home & showered! Off To Shop ya'll[[:

MALAYSIA TOMORRROWWWWW[[[[[:
TIOMAN SOOON WITH MAMAH!
CANT WAIIIITTTTT.
1-7TH MARCH YA'LL!

somehow everyone knows how to make you better;
i cant see the words t say t you;
infact im not helping at all
hurting you know?
perhaps not,
maybe thats why nothings happening;
oh well, like you said you guess somethings gonna happen by lent
lets see,
you seem verh different these days! idk why?

SOMETHINGS DIFFERENT I KNOW IT.

2008-02-21T04:11:00.000-08:00

wadupppp ya'll!
alright today was awesomeeee. Moodswings for awhile during science then was okay by end of school?
got super super high[:
eyhh im kinda worried abt some stuffs!
oh well, i shall try make it[:
oh well, thanks everyone[[:
ILY ALOT 4A[:
stayed back t lunch.. den den.. went t music room t watch 2A dance
AWESOME JOB GUYS[:
hahaha! then left school & SAW SOMEONE!
chocked on water cause like after so long then see him! hahahahaha
super funnehhhh;
then texted him all th way home;
then i napped; hahahahah then then he woke me up at 0530hrs. but i went back t sleep but only woke up at 0730hrs! ahahaha thanks anyways[[[:

STUDY STUDY STUDY SUSANNA[[:
PASS!PASS!PASS! HERE I COME YO!

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE!
MY ONLY SUNSHINE;
YOU MAKE ME HAPPY WHEN SKIES ARE GREY;
YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU;
PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAYYYY!
YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

somehow i found out you were attached?
to trust or not to trust!

2008-02-19T04:54:00.000-08:00

hogayyyy, school was fun today! no pe ] :
im starting t like it siah! hha maybe cause it floorball
haha it rocks!
i shall video tape it some time soon! and see how we whack siol!
hahha POWER LA!
hahahahahaha! so yeah,
sorry mrs goh for making you cry today!
i guess its not that we don't appreciate
you, but maybe cause we are very playful!
but really we really do love you.
seriously, your like a mother to us,
who keeps on helping us and in the end getting yourself into trouble.
i'm sorry! somehow i really wish i could hug you.
I LOVE YOU REALLY DO!
I'm sorry for everything

lastly,
HAPPY 3 MONTH DAR!
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH,
i am sorry for everything i have said out
of anger.
i am sorry that i cant control my anger.
dear, your moodiness will get better!
i love you very much!

mommy i miss you dearly, i promise to wait mommy, i will

i decided t blog and t let everything out i guess?

oh well, really i no longer get anyone anymore i guess?
everyone's living in a world of their own! no one cares abt one another anymore.
i really wonder whats happening no one gives a fucking dam anymore la!
family so much for family!
FUCK SHIT LA!

i hate coming home t an fucking empty home without everyone,
where everyone leaves me t do night shift or does OT cause theres
nothing to do at home;
well, i hate staying with daddy, mummy.
i really don't wanna stay with daddyy! there's no love.
COME BACK HOME OR TAKE ME WITH YOU PLEASE MUMMY!
i really wanna stay with you, will you just understand!
whats with not splitting the sisters up?
well everything change with a big jump!
without taking smaller steps.
idkkkk, like last time we use t eat together every sunday!
spent time together at sentosa!
so mant family gathering!
now WE DONT EVEN OUT A FUCK!
HOW FUCKING SCREWED IS THAT?
knoww what i really dont wanna go on anymore

2008-02-15T05:07:00.000-08:00

FUCK IT!
EVERYONES UPSIDE DOWN!
HOW?

MY FAULT!
BLAME ME KAY!

MIA!
FUCK FUCK FUCK

HOW BLOGGER KNOW HOW I FEEL?
WELL,
FUCKED UP!

2008-02-13T05:45:00.000-08:00

it's here again,
everyone seems to be blaming god for something which
we wished had not happened however we had wanted that
something very badly;
well god, i really don't know what i want,
I'm at wits ending deciding on what my fate leaves me to tonight,tomorrow, and so on.
I am not very sure of what to expect for the future.
Does anyone? will i wake tomorrow? a question no one ponders upon.
everyones just to busy to think about such stuff.
Lets just put it in a way that no one cares about the external things anymore;
but their typical life..
E.g. Homework, who's going to be online, my drama;
try changing your thoughts how about

will i wake to tomorrow,
will i do anything wrong later on?
will i die halfway?
whats god going to say to me when i die?

theres just so many things we've been missing out on life.

2008-02-12T00:46:00.000-08:00

school was awesomee ya'll[[:
laughed alot alot; hahaha! I LOVE SCHOOL MAKES ME LAUGH HELL LOADS.
thanks guys for eveything[[:
assembly was awesomeeeee! hhahhaha
GO MRS GOH!
thats about it i guess?
alrightys
V DAY COMMING SOON YA'LL!♥♥

BOYFRIENDS/~~GIRLFRIENDS~~ BE NICE;

wanna tell me how you define love♥♥?

to me love isn't a game;
where people toy with each other,
but happiness
i believe that everyone will love a day,
if its not now its next time,
when someone leaves you don't be depressed, cause
you know something must have happened for
things to have ended in a way neither one expected.
treasure every second/ minute you spend;
never have regrets.
believe in forevers because they will last
IF ONLY YOU BELIEVE,
most importantly.
built the trust on each other,
that it how i define love.

i love you very much boy;

i guess much that was for you?
take care!

2008-02-11T06:02:00.000-08:00

ALRIGHTS!
school was belardiiii AAWEEESOMEEEE!
so yeah, monday blues as usual! ahahaah! but later day was much much MUCH! better!
waiitt cpa was the best larhs! mabel was like shocked when the bell went! hahhaha! wtffff!
oh well, then after school stayed back t study with dear dear, mabel,marianne [[: awesomee yo!
then then like chamwhored! [[: miss boy alot alot alot!
Then like didnt do much! [[:
having test this whole dam week? urghhhh! save me ya'll!
MATHS&EOA TOMORROW!
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

someone fell sick again]]:
get well soon yo![[:
uh uh right right v day is coming super fast!
i miss someone***
take care yes boy[[:
ilyt!

3 more days t v day;
8 more days to 3 months!
hurry fly time hurry!

4A ya'll ♥
darlings of all!

hello dearest,

its been a great honor knowing you for 4 years if my life;
to think its coming to an end so quickly,
treasure every single second while we at least have those.
whats important is that I'll never forget you;
jiayou for N levels!
5 more months.
beautiful relation I'd treasure;
thank you for bringing laughter in everyday for the past 3 years;
a day seemed not right without each one of you;
2005-2008

♥ Susanna

2008-02-09T19:50:00.000-08:00

yesterday was OH-SO-AWESOMEEE YA'LL!
hogayyy, so like went over t clarelyns house, played alot alot. talked and ate..&drank..
right, LOL! then went over t kenneths place; cool much! LOLL then went over t compass with dar t get drinks for them then headed t kenneth's place! wasnt feeling well, kay, rightt..
then then gambled the whole night"pakat" with bestie at first! she's got luck yo!
LOLL! then went t playgroud played blind mice. NOT VERH NICE when your then dam mice!
right bestfriend? SHUCKS! LOLL! then went back over t kenneths place to sent bestie then caleb went off too. walked back to compass to fetch jasper bought supper! or maybe dinner back, & i slept[[: while they played HARDCORE PLEASEEEE.fucking good gamblers sia.
order macs like around 3-4+? then ate and all went to sleep yo! then all left at different time;

4 more days t valentines day;
9 more days t 3 months yo;

this post is so not about karin lum! get it right yo!
YOUR SUCH A FUCKING SHORTY WHO TALKS LIKE A FUCKED UP
BIMBO LAAA! LIKE WTF LA! STOP SCREWING EVERYONES LIFE LA
BITCH! FIRST COMES ALONG BF NO.1... AWHILE LATER FIND A NEW BF... THEN GO T SOMEONE ELSE.. THEN RETURN TO BF NO.1? UGHHH GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT LA.
LOSER! SO SHORT.i hate you la! fucked up frog face!

2008-02-08T04:20:00.000-08:00

sup sup[[:

days have been oh-so-awesomeee yo!
i just found out that i get high on some can drinks!
wtf?! HAHAHAAHAH!
so yeah, woke up super early thaanks to papa!
who bought himself a birthday cake! when his birthday was long over please?
LOLLL! yeahhh.. then bathed and waited for dar t wake.. then went t meet him[[:finally saw him after long long[[[:
yaynesssssssss[[:
thenn left him like around 5 plus!

I HAD A FUCKING WEIRD DREAM PLEASE!
SALTIES UNDER A COCONUT TREEE! I MISS YOU GUY]:

[salt anniversary planners]
WE ROCK YO! WE ROCK TILL MIDNIGHT!

HAVE FUN LIZ CHNG!
HURRY COME BACKKK! I MISS YOU PLEASEEE!
dingbat rocks yo!

2008-02-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

lets face it everything sucks like totally.. nothings been great except brotherhood! [:
ughhhhh! fuck fuck fuck fuck! i really needed that pleaseeee.
I

WANNA

PULL

PEOPLE'S

HAIR

OUT

SO

DAM

BADLY

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

IM SO ANNOYED! AIYOYO! okayyy chill yo susanna.
chilling[[:

righttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

talked w reggie during break! lol so many dam things spreading.
shall talk abt this now.

PEOPLE SHOULD STOP FUCKING PASSING RUMORS ABT ME AND *****
.
CAUSE WE'RE EFFING HELL NOT TOGETHER GET IT?!

NOT

TOGETHER

WAS

NEVER

TOGETHER;

first it was me and emman and then me and martin & now me and him! wthhhhhhhhh!
like get a life la peoplleeee.

so found out that it was not only me and him but reg too! ughhh
how we hate thoese rumors right reggie?

ughhh totally i say i suck right;
cant make anyone around me happy;
no one at all!
not even gloria or glenn!
wtf right?!
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh
some kinda cousin/friend i am.
well, i just have t face it
im full of crap.
everything sucks la okay.

Somehow, balling didnt help today. maybe cause i left at shooting 2 goals.
arghhhhhh.
& WTF?! go school for like 2 fucking hours only?
wasting my dam time la.

I

SHOULD

JUST

RUN

AWAY

T

SOMEWHR

QUIET

AND

HIDE,

BESTFRIEND I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW!
IM SERIOUS!

THANKS GABRIEL FOR HELPING;
I WONT PULL OUT HAIRS.

cheer up gloria,
pray and things are going t be fine;
i will be here!

2008-02-02T18:40:00.000-08:00

HOLLLAAAA[[: yesterday was oh-so-AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE[:

yupp yupp! met up with marie&shannen[[:

airport-ed[[: ALOT ALOT OF PICS YO[;

so like yeahhh!ate alot alot pleasseee! hahaha! then went T1 & saw my sister working!

HAHAHAHHAHA! LOSER PLEASE?! oh well, thennn marie&shannen stayed over.. watched movie and all[[:

i shall upload pics[:

2008-01-31T06:24:00.000-08:00

i'll write up tomorrow;

im off to study for science tomorrow!

oh well,

i love N[: somehow!

2008-01-30T06:29:00.000-08:00

ALRIGHTS
school was normal i guess? apart from me being sick& n'level.. nothing else sucked..
ughhh seriously i dont wanna school tomorrow please...i need help please.. my throat hurts alot
like some dumb needle poking it please?! ughhhh! im addicted to axe oil please?! its so good! hahas! [[: stayed back and watch N playyy... ohhhh.. [[[: big hugs! ohoh[[:
then thennn bused with pat & marianne[[:
then reached home! showered! and then followed jesse t doctors and then dinnered with sisters;
after so long pleaseeee..oh gosh! i wanna go nap le.
my throat hurts fucking badly can anyone hear me?

nothing last forever;we lost it all.
im sorryy; its not like i wanted things to end tat way;
its 2008 stop looking back at 2007;;
i promised t move on then n came into my life
i treasure her alot alot; maybe i really did love her;;
thenn i moved onn and B came into my lifee;;
he's good t me;; somehow everyone makes mistakes;
give me think to move on;
somehow i knew you still had thoese feelings for me;;
i cant help it;
its not over;

SUSANNA'S SICKK! TERIBBLY SICKK1
HOW HOW HOW?
OH NO!
yet!

2008-01-29T03:40:00.000-08:00

Twenty-Nine January Two Thousand And Eight[:

Gave school a miss, wasnt feeling well ]]: been sick lately yo]]:
which is pretty bad! oh well, still the high high susanna[[:
YIPPIE! oh well, hmmm so yes[: *rolls eyes*
waiit so now im like moody/pissed.. ughhhh! oh lord god yo!
pat kinda called me[[: hhaha! talked alot alot yo!
see im sick yet high again[[:
whats wrong with me? oh well,
not going out t study thou
so im gonna do self revision
apprently i forgot homework!
hahas! oppps! ]]:
so yes somehow school makes me happy happy![:

buddyy:
ehh wahlauu whats wrong with you?
you uhh! must open up mahh! then i understand mah
then i can share share too mahhh![:
so yes cheer up yo![:
you've been upset of late please.
whats wrongggggg!!!
chill aite?
take care buddy[:
tallie and strong one!

2008-01-29T03:25:00.000-08:00

2008-01-29T02:20:00.000-08:00

MY DAY WITH DEAR DEAR&MARIE[:

okay this was on monday though;

MONDAY BLUES ARE AWAY BECAUSE OF THEM[:

2008-01-28T06:00:00.000-08:00

okay pokeyyy[:
schools been kinda great latetly[[:
so yes, everyone had the monday blues.. hahas! wthhhhhhhhhhh!
so yes hall-ed for assembly.. then maria started crying.. find out why later; hahas!
then lessons we're greatt![[: played alot alot; then stayed back for lunch and compassed with marie and shannen we went all famous amos [[: good stuff please... i shouldnt eat much!
then bus-ed home and waited for b's call... hahas! finally he reached hougang arnd 8+! haha studied and i did get somethings! hahas! b was complaning that his fringe was blocking so i clipped it up for him[[: see b! good girlfriend right?? HAHAS! [[[[:yes than b walked me home&into lift too[[[: thanks b[: and he left..
b i miss you pleaseeeee]:
i told b i'd sleep by 1045 so im off now[:
nights yo

ohoh

my condolences to parrot[:

2008-01-28T02:46:00.000-08:00

dear god,
nothing in my life has been improving at all,
not even a single bit, i dont know why;
somehow whatever you have planned for me isnt really
working out; maybe it was fate that me and buddy had t meet last
year and to help me in life; maybe it was fate that me and gloria had
to be closer than we were; and maybe it was also fate that my mum found true happnies;
by leaving, somehow i dont wanna say anything anymore, people can readd me like
an open book; gloria & buddy knows it somehow; deep down i really regret alot of things;
im breathless; hearts not beating prolly; know i acctually though i was going t die in school;
after that game; its was so abnormal! 3 beats thn pause then 3 beats thn pause. my throat was jam! i felt numb! i couldnt move; i've been lacking in my prayers alot; somehow i tend t put the blame on god! ITS NOT GOD'S FAULT SUSANNA ARTHUR DANIEL BUT YOURS! YOUT OWN FAULT! nobody tell me to not blame myself; its my fault no one lie to me;
hatredddd!!!! i feel it. no one knows what im going through. after all that happened on saturday night i managed t get over it; i told myself everyone makes mistakes, i appeared super happy today! well, no one! not even buddy or gloria knew how i felt like 15 mins ago when i finally opened up to her.Im pretty scared for my dad, he super weak! what happening;
my tears have ran dry; i can no longer cry; when will i ever be happy; even if i die tonight, im ready.
HELLO CAN ANYONE HEAR ME;
SOMEHOW I DIED MINTUES AGO;
I LEFT FOR PEACE;
GOD BLESS YOU ALL,
DONT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES I DID;
dear jesus,
forgive me for whatever i'v done;
take me cause you know i need you

WHOEVER SAID I WAS UPSET[[:

LIES LIES LIES

2008-01-27T08:28:00.000-08:00

SEE SOMEHOW I LOVE CHAING ALOT ALOT[:

2008-01-27T04:34:00.000-08:00

who knows what god has planend for me,
tell me cause i hate it

2008-01-26T19:56:00.000-08:00

MORNING YO[:

okayyy, so had a pretty late night yesterday; nothing much
okay maybe there's something but i can say it here thou;

so yeahh.. woke up by anna's call! so much for sleeping in please?
LOL, im currently distracted by my bleeding hand.. its so... yahh you should get it[:oh well, somehow my dreams brought me back t my life years ago & to thnk of it i reallymiss my past; well sometimes things do change! so like like, im mising alot alot of people[:,oh well, how time fly's it was just like yesterday i was sec1?,oh well,

somehow i miss cath class[: HAHAS! confirmants this year should really take this time to start being close; well no regrets for MIGHTY 10[: con camp was super fun.
so many memories but only three days t spread them all[:

well oh well, as for school, nothing has been imporving. okay maybe i just didnt realise, well! things has just been getting worst worst! oh well, seriously that B**** should really just shuff her dad's dick into her mouth and shut it!
like who the eff wanna go whack her all!
in the first place we dont even wanna touch her?!
c'mon la we even keep a 2 metre distance away from you;
& you claim that you got whacked.
oh well, mind you dont get sued please[:
GO PAT[: WE'RE BEHIND YOU! CLASS SPIRT YO[[:
I LOVE YOU BIG TIME!

DEAR DEAR[:& Marie[[:
thanks alot for being there with me for like 4 years now alrdy man(:
like sleep over and all was SUPERB fun yo[: thanks for porbbing me whenever
i was down and all[: school's always fun with you both; maybe you guys just never knew
what's in my heart thats why you both didnt know; well, i really treasure this friendship and I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH[:

yet cca isnt any better too, wel guys reliased that we're all on two's or three and not the sevesome anymore? well, seriously cause we havent been spending time together AT ALL]]:like no one makes time; moreover this is our last year[excpet thoese not passing out],remember like last time we always like out and all! what vivo city all!
then our neos and all[:we stuck together like none in the batch, it was always us, bringing back memories t HQ where we had our SANA&KOTO test! thiking of cheating and all!
ohoh, remember our forever attire TRACKPANTS&HOUSETEE! after HQ t concourse for lunch.
gladdys and her DAM LOUD VOICE;
JOEY AND HER...[inside cca secrets]
MARILY FORVER WITH HER COMB.
VANESSA FOREVER WAKING UP LATE?

I LOVE YOU GUYS[:
ALL AND EVERYONE OF YOU GUYS MEANS

THE WORLD TO ME[:

2008-01-26T05:39:00.000-08:00

holaaa((:
so yes yes, studied the whole day! from morning till like late evening?
hahas! yay me[: GLORIA'S BEEEN BUSY STUDYING BIG TIME LARHS! NEH NEH]]:
i shall start studying like her.. then like no time t have any worries(: happy happy me[:
HAHS! which IS going t happen very very soon [[: oh well, no time for anything at all! how cool! not even for anyone! STUDY STUDY STUDY is all i'll ever think about[: hidiak please!
lols.. very soon[: im just chaging for the better;

you dont seem like you love me anymore;
i dont know why? what happen t you;
you even wanna throw it away?
oh well, like i said.. its really up to you.
i cant stop you from doing it.
should i or should i not?
I CANT BRING MYSELF T IT;
not even thiking about it;
it was suppose t be unending; why th
sudden change?
oh well,

2008-01-25T08:10:00.000-08:00

School was average i guess;nothing much happened except CD lesson around there..
[sweetie you will be fine yea? dont care her alrdy i love you and we all so thats all thats gonna matteer aitte, we'll back you up no matter what! what are buddies for,i'll catch your fall]
so yes, then cca((: done not very badly! HAHAS! ALPHA BEST YO(:hmmm then thenn footdrill whole dayy! hahas! i did first aid yo(:
Left before debrief! head superb painn.. went home and slept big time man! hahas..woke up just nice for tution.. dinner and tutioned(:then thennn.. onlined(: hahas! oh yahh waiiting for shannen t send video over ahahaha FIGHTS IN CLASS YO[: i didnt(: see b! I DIDNT(:
*HURRY COME BACK B! YOUR EATING SUPER LONG PLEASE?! HAHAS
OH YOUR BACK! YAY YOU((:B GO BLOG MAN(: HAHAS!
ohh yahh! so yes, i planned my future alrdyy((:
MARTIN!! I WANT BARNEYYY!!.

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE(:
IM HAVING AN NOT SO EARLY BUT EARLY NIGHT(:

i love you b((:
army soon! oh well, still got 11 months thou.
hahahs((:

2008-01-24T04:04:00.000-08:00

yahooooooooooooooooo everyone[[[:
im feeling much much better atleastt..
school was normal&fun yet again.. remedial after class;
thenn.. meet w b outside school and went outtt. finally seeing him after a long while please?
so yeahh, then bused home w amanda and we were crapping all the freaking way pleaase?
hahaha! ((((: thenn reached home,showered and here i am(:
onlining with gabriel! oh oh didnt see him at crossroads todayy neh neh):
hahahas! so yeahhh
oh god! i wanna study but i dont have the disipline to sit and study;
my brain auto switch off like 5-10 mins;
even through tution last night oh crap laaa.
i should start taking things more serious laa..
HELLO N'S THIS YEAR PLEASE!?
WHAT HAPPEN T THE I WANNA STUDY HARD SUSANNA?
computers&handphones are so distracting me;
how i wish i was like last year; i could refuse them )):

wanna help anyone?
oh yah,
congrats MARTIN GOH(:
6 POINTS YO((:VJ HERE MARTIN COMES!

2008-01-23T05:30:00.001-08:00

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

super duper upset that i've got no mood to carry on doing ANY FCUKING THING!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

gooodbye

2008-01-22T05:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY USHA(:

5 more days for tiffo to return!
hurry fly days! bring back tiffo!

GOODNIGHT SWEETHEARTS&DEARS&DARLINGS(:

like i needd you but your not there;
like i really wanna talk to you but somehow you dont understand me;
like im trying my best t explain but somehow you dont get it!
nothings going right.spend more time with them
and less with me! its perfectly fine!

~~i got overyou; i dont love you~~

You should have just throw me down;

i would have been more happier;

my sister knows why;

i'm pissed enough;

not replying me

I DONT CARE!

2008-01-21T03:43:00.000-08:00

Not In The Very Best Of Mood;

i shall continue after english.. so yeahh.. LABBED FOR 5 FREAKING PERIODS!? bloody cold pleaseee?! AND BEST IM UNDER AIR CON?! NBBB. Then CPA was okayy i guess... Mr Chang was being super funny.. trying act talk Malay with me all.. LOL pleasee.. hahas.. then then.. recessed.. lessons.. and nothing funn..except PE): ran like 2 bloody long long runs.. ahaha not that bad? thenn balled.. fucking funn please[ hell yeah i pushed myself] HAVENT BEEN TRNG FOR SUPER LONG?? ]COURTS IM COMMING BACK SOON.. maybe not.. depends on boyfriendd.. thennnn thanks to mehraaj hit my.... HAHHA you all should get it?! well it depends..
hmmmm thennn traineed comp teams after school.. then bused home with big time headached.. MACS for lunchh.. thenn yeahh onlined..
thinking to tution or not?! hmmm should i? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

B i miss you! start studying pleasee..
you dont have much time left.. huryy huryy
yay! im taking N's while you taking O's(:
atleast we got our stickers((: hahah!
I LOVVE YOU B(:

2008-01-20T16:16:00.001-08:00

HOLAAA((:
NEW BLOG YO!

20/January/2008(:

So yes yes, had something on during morning.. thenn went to compass to studyy with cousin(:
then then went to meet raphie;ben&glenn(: so like yeahh ate at BK((: thenn studied & studied(: yahooo! i could concentrate manzzxzxz((:
then then went out withh B, to playground which he calls exercising park?! wtffff..
lol please?! thenn like.. I MISSED B SO MCUH PLEASEE?!! then went opposite to play swing with him.. but well we didnt?? AHAHAH! thenn left there at round 7.40 i guess? then went home bathed and laid down on bed without taking dinner... and fell asleep while waiting for B's reply to come in! SORRY B(: hmmm then woke up at 12 and replied him and the rest.. then went back to sleep yo((:

yay! after not seeing you for a very long time we finally out (:
remember our promise((:
& waiit for me to turn 26(:
HURRY FINISH YOUR NS(:
YOU CANT BE SAD..well well, tryy atleast
you said you wont(: you know i love you
REMEMBER 5 MORE DAYS(:
YAHOO(:YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH!
REMEMBER OUR STICKER((:

21/January/2008(:
HOGAYYY!((:
schooled this morning and blah blahh.. nothing much i guess? saw gabriel while crossing the road.. ahahaa! LOL.. thenn.. saw him made me think of SOMETHING(((: happyly walked into school.. and satt.. thenn alot camee.. hmm then assemmbly.*BIG JOKES*
MARIA TANG SPILLED WATER AROUND THE COURT WHERE SECONDARY 3'S WERE STRANDING?! WTHHHH...
LOLLLLLLLLLLL!
thenn englishh.. corrected commonwealt essay.. thenn blogging((:
IM BORED YOOO!
MABEL HELPPP! )))))):
B's not replying): he's prolly working hard..
hmmm haha! well well..

COUNTDOWNS YO(:
5 MORE DAYS TO SEE B(:
6 MORE DAYS FOR BESTFREN TO COME BACKK(: